this is us..

~tHe gEdikickeRs~



5 years n counting... :)
heart'ing u to the core
~x.o.x.o~

p/s: prasan x, gmbr ni, susunan kite terbalik ngan susunan gmbr all black tu..hehe :)

accidental 'the gedikickeRs' reunited + few extras sidelines

saturday oh saturday..
we went out..pastu call sai..tgk2 dorang jadi lak nk g wondermilk...kebetulan giles la wacakapsamalu..smbut beday naza n yana..pastu dorang meet us up kat johny's...

(matrik: all black.sume org nk kutuk time ni.pastu dorang sndiri pon nk pakai kaler same2.ceit.)

sai, syaz, azwa, naza : REUNITED + few sidelines (haha sorry guys, pggil korang sidelines)
ok la..tu tukar la..xmo pggil sidelines, u guy are better than that kan..ehem..tukar.."sidekicks!"..haaa ok la tu kan?canggeh..hehe

title edited: *accidental 'the gedikickeRs' reunited + few extra sidekicks!*

spell this out girls..

R.I.N.D.U.U.U.G.I.L.E.F.A.H.A.M.T.A.K!!!

then u know la wut happen kan bile pmpuan2 yg dah lame gilos xjmpe, tetibe jmpe..
"1..2..3..POSE!!...again2!!again2!!" hehe :p

we should do this again..soon!
and we should take more pictures..(picture yg akan diupload ofcoz..bukan tunggu sbulan ek mr.sidekick kamal :p)..haha..i dont have a camera..so, cant post any pic here..kene tunggu azwa n kamal uploadkan..

p/s: cpt la upload sayangss! :)

down under memory lane

the moon is shining so bright tonite..
but it is covered by the cloudy nite sky..
i dont know why..
somehow, it brings back memories..











i miss the smile we had..
i miss the high pitch laugh we all had..
i miss the secrets we share..
i miss how we take care of each other..
i miss the day we played truth or dare!!..gosh..haha!
most importantly,
i miss us...












:)

memories are ment to be kept..
not in a folder..
but in ur heart..

cherish every moment u have
capture all the gliters
freeze all the glories..
so may it stick with u forever..

the letter..

lately..
i talk to myself a lot..
i persuade myself frequently..
to see whats relevant..to look at things deeper..and to feel less
i weigh the pros and the cons constantly..
..and the decision made, became less excruciating..

to be mean and cold is so not me.
but i can ACT like one.atleast.
i am a drama queen remember?
its time to take care of myself. and think less about other's.

how did it end up like this? gosh..im so not in my skin rite now.
difficult.but my mind is set.its done.
im done.im washing my hands off.
no more.


sorry dear,but this is it.
its the ending u chose.
im merely granting u ur wish.
as always, ur wish is my command
abrakadabra! *pooofff!!* :)

best group

NEVER a day i missed thanking Allah for putting me into such a wonderful group.

i LOVE u all so much.

never had such protective guys and such caring girls in my group before..
this is a group at its best..we are like a family..we do everything together..

but,
im so afraid to get too attached..
coz next year will be the end of it..
it will break my heart to be apart with them,
as we are sooo close now.
haih..

Allah,
can u please keep this group together till final year..please..pleaseeee pleaseeeeeee

zooe's criteria

ok, setelah perbincangan yg rancak dijalankan antara ahli2 group 5 med0708 pada tarikh 050110, jam 1215, satu konklusi telah dicapai..inilah die zooe's criteria..

"ciri2 jantan berjaya"

baik, bijak , pandai, kacak, kaya, bergaya..

cube sebut laju2..it rhymes!!

lagi skali..

baik bijak pandai kacak kaya bergaya!!!!!!!



oh wujudkah???


*~~~~~melayang~~~~~~*

p/s: this criteria is a result of the research done by zooe.
(zooe; the founder of zooe's criteria )

yeay!

hey noticed the new header??hehe..

seperti kelihatan ade tall 't wave' di situ kan?
adekah blogku ini menghidap hyperkalaemia, hyperacute MI ataukah left bundle branch block???

ok stop it syaz..mentang2 baru blajar bace ECG.. (maafkan daku bermonolog sebentar)

back to the point..ahem..ok.

yeay dah reti!..ok gile busuk, bnde simple cmtu pon nk 'yeay' kan?
tp..kira ok la tu tuk org yg techno blind..hahaha..
gune adobe plak tu..yeee~ tau~ hina gila~ bgga sbb reti dgn busuknya guna adobe~..haha..

anyway, reti la gak kan.. :p


"pulse...
.....aku dan degupan.."


ceeeeeewah!!..*kelip* kelip*..hehe


lub dub lub dub..

aku panggil ini simbol 'dewa'..this was my signature dolu2..all my stuffs mesti ade lambang
mende'alah ni..skang dah malas nk lukis..hehe

.......... is the name of the game

am i selfish?
i think i am..
..i dont want to be anymore..

how long shud i hold on..?

no i shudnt do this..
i shud've let it go
i shud've let it choose its own path..
i have nothing to do with it. i cannot control everything..
its sumone else's future.. i shudnt hv fuck with it.

i have to walk away..for ur sake

the reality is..it SUCK!

today is the day..though it has been expected. but it still hurt like shit...

..chapter 3..

another chapter in my life has ended.closed.
the plot made me feel the palpitation that has long never been felt.
never thought that its gonna be THIS brief..


its ok.

will move on.
chapter 4 might be fun.. kan?

numb

have you ever felt numbness? its there but it is not really there..u can touch it but u can barely feel it..n you want it to go away? yeah.

when u longed for sumting soooo much for sooo long..sooo much that u become numb.sooo long dat ur heart become numb. and in the end you couldnt feel anything anymore.



* **** *. but i couldnt feel anything anymore. make me feel happy again please.

havent met

michael buble has never failed to melt my heart thru his 'oh-gila-cair' lyrics and 'oh-nk-mati-dgr' voice..over.n.over.again.
.and again.
yes, again.

everytime.
this time, its this song.. its lyrics is so cute and the rhytm is so catchy :)
loving evry bit of it.

I'm Not Surprised
Not Everything Lasts
I've Broken My Heart So Many Times,
I Stop Keeping Track.
Talk Myself In
I Talk Myself Out
I Get All Worked Up
And Then I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Loose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

And I Know Someday That It'll All Turn Out
You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

Mmmmm ....

I Might Have To Wait
I'll Never Give Up
I Guess It's Half Timing
And The Other Half's Luck
Wherever You Are
Whenever It's Right
You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Possibility

Mmmmm ......

And Somehow I Know That It Will All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

They Say All's Fair
And In Love And War
But I Won't Need To Fight It
We'll Get It Right
And We'll Be United

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Being In Your Life Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Single Possibility

Mmmm .....

And Someday I Know It'll All Turn Out
And I'll Work To Work It Out
Promise You Kid I'll Give More Than I Get
Than I Get Than I Get Than I Get

Oh You Know It'll All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
Yeah I Just Haven't Met You Yet

I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Oh Promise You Kid
To Give So Much More Than I Get

I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

lelaki yg punyai kata2 mencairkan,
mr.buble :)

oh mari dowloadd!! (ok ptutnya beli..haha)

and he say 'thank you"

having a chance to be a medical student, for me, is a bless..

i am reminded of the greatness of Allah the Almighty everyday, every moment..how wonderful the creation of His..and how He can take evrything that u own in a split second..all that u believed to be,might not be at all..u might be a brave, strong & tough soldier today, but who knows what will happen to u tomorrow? u can end up being a cripple who would be in the ward for 3 damn years, needing assisstance in doing E.V.E.R.Y S.I.N.G.L.E T.H.I.N.G you can do so effortlessly today.

now..im counting my blessing everyday..thank you Allah..

.......

that day..i went to a pt's bed just for fun..as i saw his finger pointing up..up..i don noe..somewhere..
i saw a few student nurse by his bed..so i asked them what is he pointing to..they shrugged.
not sattisfied with the given gesture, i ask the pt myself.."pakcik..pakcik tunjuk ape tu?"..i have to put my ear sooo close to his mouth as he could barely speaks..he whisper.. "siling"..i was so happy to hear a respond..then i ask again "ohh..ade ape kat siling tu pakcik?"..without looking at me he answered "bunga2"..

i was enlightened..

i have been in the ward for 3 weeks..but never once i reallise that the ceiling is decorated with small stamped flowers..that small flowers..created an impulse in that pakcik's brain..as that is the only thing he could do now..SEEING..he cannot move as freely anymore..he is as stiff as a wood..every single movement need a generous amout of effort.

i reallise how i took things for granted..how i go thru my days, just for the sake of living..days goes by pass me..time passes me so quickly..i should take time to look at things carefully so that i can SEE..not just looking, but seeing..

.....

from that day onward, i go to his bed everyday..talking to him..trying to make an active conversation..just so that he would not get too bored..it is a pleasure to hear his respond..eventho sumtimes i have to asked him to repeat his answer soooo many times, he did it willingly. never once he keep himself quiet when i asked him questions..

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one day... when i was putting some gauze on his legs, to take off the pressure from the mould he has to wear to straighten his crooked legs..'"mencengkam" as he would say it..i look at him, patting his head, and....

i ask "ok x pakcik?"..........
"x ok" he whispered......
"x ok?kenape?mencengkam lagi kaki?".....
"selimut"..

i pull up the blanket up to his neck..and i giggle..he is so cute in that position!!haha atok yg comel..

"cmni pakcik??ok x??sejuk lagi??"
"ok..."
"dah ok??hehe...ok...skang pakcik tido ek pkcik..tido yee" putting my hand on his head

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then..

for the first time,he look at me in the eye..
and whispered ever so softly..

"terima kasih......"

....

i froze.holding up my tears.

.....

that is the most beautiful 'thank you' i ever got..
so precious..
so sincere..
so pure..

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thank you Allah..
thank you for letting me be in 'my shoe'...

aku sudah lupa

aku kini sudah lupa.


pernah x alami situasi begini?...

pabila cikgu tnyakan soalan. yg kalian tau jawapannya..sgt tahu..pernah jwb soalan ini..erghh...siap ingt lagi dr muka surat mane dibaca makumat ini..tp..erghhh..ape ek?lupaa...xingt..sgt xtercapai dek akal..sgt tau tp sgt xtau..


.....

haih...
aku juga sudah lupa.

aku lupa bagaimana rasanya apabila sepasang mata memandang tepat pada anak mata aku, smbil mgatakan betapa aku amat disayangi..

aku juga lupa, bagaimana rasanya hati berbunga2 sepanjang hari..menunggu saat bersua..

sudah aku tidak ingt bagaimana rasa leburnya hati tatkala aku ketakutan, dikatakan pada aku supaya jgn dirisaukan kerana pasti akan selamat diri ini..

tidak ku ingt bagaimana ingin pecah jantungku bila aku rehatkan kepalaku ke bahu dan dirapatkan pipi ke ubunku..

bagaimana ya rasanya bila aku lihat dr jauh senyuman terukirkan untuk ku..hanya untuk aku.aku sudah lupa..

sudah aku tidak tahu langsung bagaimana bibir ini lenguh dek senyuman setiap kali aku terima mesej2 indah.. setiap masa, setiap hari, setiap minit, dari fon kecil yg kini sudah tidak lagi berbunyi..

btul aku sudah lupa..bagaimana darah mengalir sperti tsunami..bilamana kawan2ku menceritakan bagaimana diri ini dipertahan dari belakang..

ingin sekali ku ingt bagaimana rasanya aku mati seketika tatkala telinga ini dibisikan betapa aku diingini..




aku sudah lupa

the good old days..

this is happiness...

when i recieve a call i did not expect in a thousand years, when i hear that voice, a weight is lifted off of my heart..=)..thank you for calling...and THANK you for saying sorry..

im sorry too for what wrong i did to you and for all those harsh words i wrote. and sorry for being so sibuk2 in ur life..

i hope this time around u'll make it right..
i hope this time around u will not break her heart as u did mine..=)
g kawin cepat2..aku nk jd mak angkat..eh leh ke mak angkat?



p/s: ignore list cane?