almost 2

yes i can see..and i can also feel..
pushing me away with all ur might..

"xnk sudah.. name ko dollah..
tetek ko sebelah!huhhhhh!"


maybe its time..yeah maybe now is the time
when i should just STOP
take a breath
and walk away

because only then can i see a smile carved on ur face

i know this is what u have been waiting for..

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***ok..tgh PMS ni..emosi jap..no harm done kan..***

happy beday petrosains!

last night i went to kl convention center for petrosains 10th annual dinner..it was great! miss all my friends..serius weyh..rindu korang..xpe nnt bulan 6 aku keje!haha....here are some of the pictures..

hepy beday!

adibah noor "the sailorMon"..die sndiri yg ckp cmtu k..mantap gile suare!

iye..sedang lapar ok..kul 930 baru start makan

i cried too much..my eyes need water..haha

ni die..adek bradek paling best! iryn & inyr..cm upin ipin dorang ni..
iryn,bile kite nk men tgkp2 gmbr emo agy??
inyr,bile kite nk nyanyi2 agy? sa-two!

ni die cik khalida..kwn aku since form 1,smpi la ke petrosains

ye2..aku tau..gedik..ye..

iryn yg dah xde piercing byk2..bersih muke..haha..

nasyitah ku sayang..haha..ko lambat ar..lame aku tunggu tau!

it is a great experience working there..lots n lots of great things has happened in all the 4 1/2 years of my volunteering..amazingly great friends..korang mmg best..one thing i noe,i cant speak in english fluently in public before i enter petrosains as a volunteer..i still remember my first day..nak2 kene lak first visitor aku pmpuan mat salleh..aduih..hancos..hancos gile...ntah pape aku ckp ntah..gagappppppp..naseb baik pmpuan yg puteh tu sgt baik..die senyum je,xde wat muke nk maki..hahaha..erm..eh jap....ingt lagi tringat agy satu bende..afiq!kite first jmpe kat ctu kan?!kat tmpt dinosaur tu..ko nk masuk 2 kali pastu kan?kan?kan?thx kepada aku 'akak ptrosains'..hahaha..aku ingt agy..ko tny "akak,cane nk dpt keje kat sini ek?"..hahahaha..

lagu yg mencairkan..ouhh

michael buble - 'everything'
haa..dgr x?aku dah embed dah..dgr x?
kalu x dgr..tunggu jap..japgy dgr la tu..

sedang dlm perjalan ke mak teh..dgn menaiki kereta ketua kelas..tetiba aku terdengar rentak lagu yg amat la aku gemari..aku pun berkata "eihhh lagu ni!" smbil senyum dgn rakus..lepas 5-6 baris lagu tu,aku yg cube mgikuti smbil mnyanyi berkata "eh??pehal laen ni??eh lagu len ek??"..dgr lagi.."ape lirik ni??"..dgr lagi.... "aaahh???lagu kfc??!asal die tukar ni!!huaa rosak lagu aku!!"..bibir ini pon terus la menitipkan kata2 makian yg manis terhadap kfc..

sedang aku memaki2 dgn muke masam (xmaki pon sbenarnye..mara je..sket je)..
tiba2..ade suara sengau2 basah kedengaran.."yg ko mara2 nape?mcm la lagu ko..bukannye ade org penah dedicate lagu tu kat ko ponnn..." smbil wat muke perli..dgn senyuman yg mendidihkan hati..dgn sengih jahat ko tuuuu...angkat2 kening agy!..muke kejam...aaa!!...jahat!sebokk!shoooh!..huaa..ko tau sgt kan aku suke lagu tu sgt3 teramat sgt..nape ko kejam?eee...aku potong bibir ko tu nnt baru ko tau!pasni xleh dah nk wat sengih gedik ko tu..nak?nak?meh..meh sini..

eh jaapp..manee ko tau xpenah ade org dedicate lagu tu kat aku aaaa..hellooo..tlg sket ek.. (sila bace dgn mngecilkan mata smbil mgangkat kening sedikit pastu jeling rakus) hahaha..

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huaaa...yela..yela..mmg xde pun!..haha..aku tau la xde org penah dedicate lagu tu kat aku kn!!kn!..xkn ade pon..aku tauuu..tp aku tetap suke..biarla! biarla aku nk berangan..aku suke..hehe..lagu tu sgt sweet OK..siiibokk..wekkkkk..

ouh...sob sob..KFC jahat..wuaaa!

leadership quality???

does these picture depict any element of leadership quality?hehe..what say u..?

these are the mimes of the camp..if only they can be a real mime in class..i mean senyap cm mime gak..ni x..kat kelas..hamboiiiiii..

mimes..muke ape tu zwir?..cang,xperlu k smpi cmtu,tp cantik ar mekup ko,sape mekup artist?..haha


muke ape tu? sembelit smpi pegang dinding?oh..sgt jadi..bagus2!mesti slalu practice kan..

anak gajah dan en.pokok bersama tukang karut yg mmg mengarut

ye..itu die..anak gajah n si pokok..anak gajah lap peluh gune hidung ye? bergaya!..kuji,muke mung sgt seperti terpesona dgn kecomelan anak gajah..

ok ni gmbr2 dr jasa baik en.kujie ye rakan2..xckup agy ni gmbr2..rlek..nnt bile dah dpt gmbr bru...i'll update!...

haa ni die gmbr kujie...oh kujie...ko bg aku sume gmbr org len..gmbr ko,ko xbg ye..ni ha aku cari sendiri..

dikir barat yg xberapa nk barat sgt la..
kujie..bersungguh2 ko bace bende tu kan?mane cari tong tu?lawa seyh..
berpeluh2 ko mase nyanyi tu,,sruh la anak gajah tolong lap gune ******..hehe

saye minta maaf jika ade yg tersinggung ataupun tercedera akibat entry ini..ini bukan nk kutuk atau membahan..ni saje sebagai kenangan yg indah..no heart feeling ya guys..

gedikbloggers..

mr.ojoi or better known as mr.kamalRuzainiLacoste telah mnyarankan supaya ditubuhkan satu blog group bernama "gedikbloggers".haha..cam best!..tp kan..lacoste, u r the only guy in gedikickers and blom ade gmbr u dlm byk2 gmbr gedikickers..eh jap..does azwa n naza knows dat u r now a gedikickers.ltd?n does miss.saiyangBoyenita knows?hahaha..anyway..cane nk wat, u kene g pakse naza wat blog gak..then kite leh la wat blog group tu..tul x SaiyangBoyenita?kan sai kan?..n u kene tgkap gmbr ngan kitorang,the pioneers of gedikickers,then baru u leh diiktiraf as a gedikkicker..n u blom ade certificate agy..pastu u mesti diragging dgn trok..erm..n macm2 agy la..kitorang kene wat tu dulu k..kan sai kan?buli die sai!buli lagi!

naza!wat blog!
sai! buli kamal lagi!
azwa! plz la update blog ko!
kamal! u kene tgkp gmbr ngan kitorang n kene diragging dulu baru leh iktiraf
syaz! maintain cute plz!..heheh..

u are so wrong

i told u "i may not be here for u forever.i might walk away" and u said "no u wont"..now let us see..

who do u think u r? u know very well not to dare me..
what?u r mad?so...???do you think i care? hear me..I DO NOT..

u r so outdated. yes i admit, i WAS deeply into u. but as u can read, 'i WAS'.no more.not anymore.will never do again.NOT..i do not look at things the same way anymore, and it is because of u. u treat us girls like rubbish. u treated me like shit, like i was nothing, like i had no feelings.i was not appreciated at all...maybe u didnt realize this --> im not a toilet paper

although there are some good in u that i cannot deny, it has been over shadowed by ur bad demeanor.

once, i care so much for u, but u ended up hurting me. it was very painful for me to even let my mind drift to think about it. i don know how can i still treat u like a fren after all that u have done to me. i still lend my ears for u if u have any prob, i still help u in any way that i can if u are caught in a trouble..even after 4 years..

u left me in the darkness to rot. for 6 months i cried my heart out. even though u were with someone else, in the name if god, i do pray for ur happiness (though i want u to feel a little bit of my missery).but i do pray for u to change. for u to treat the girl not like u treat me. for u to make her happy. believe me,i do.... do you change? NO..not even a bit. not even by a fraction of a degree. u hurt the girl just as u hurt me.haih.. as u always say "u noe me syaz..u noe me very well.dah aku mmg cani..aku jahat.xleh nk wat pape =)" .bongok. people can change. its up to ourself whter we want to change it all or just go with the flow where the devil leads us.

i cannot call u in certain names?..maybe last time, i will do u a favor by calling u nice names, never once i say 'bodo' 'bongok' 'babun' 'babi' 'setan' or any word that might hurt ur feeling. but now?? xleh gak ke?in ur head.

stupid moron: ko ade nmpk pendrive aku?
me: huh?gile ke ko ni?
stupid moron: haih,aku tny, sume org xtau.ni aku mara ni.haha
me: ee..ko ni pehal?bodo ek?
stupid moron: ape ko pnggil aku? B***?? cube ko ulang..
me: bodo?
stupid moron : =)
me: asal?mara?lantak la.xkesah.fine.bye.

i do not care even a bit. ur name is not in the list of people whom i should respect. do u in ur little tiny winiee brain which is located in ur resonance-on-percussion skull, think that i will say sorry to u? in ur dreams. i am a type of person who will put my best effort trying not to hurt the feeling of whom i care. i will say sorry countless of times.but please, dat word is not for u anymore.

this is my weakness, i shouldnt tell anyone, but here goes..
it is not easy for me to like sumone. its even harder for me to start caring. but when i do, i tell u, i do care. i will go above and beyond for the one that i care just so i can see a smile carved on their lips, even if that would hurt me. when i say i love sumone, i really mean it. some does say that im 'annoying'. im sorry dear. but it is because i care for u so much that i acted dat way. for heaven sake, i never force anyone whom i care n love to do the same thing for me. so u dont have to act as if u do. im simple, if u like me,say it. if u dont, the same rules apply. my love & care is unconditional. but patience is one hell of a different story. theres a limit to it, and mine sure have one. if u push me away, i will not go straight away..i will stay in a corner for some time..n when u r in need of my help,i will come running back to u.but..if u keep pushing n pushing me away with all ur might, and my heart just cant stand it anymore, i will take a walk and say bye bye.

i do not hate..but i resent u in many ways

hehehe..

firstly, sbelom pape, aku nk ckp..lantak la aku nk tulis ape dlm blog aku..ni blog aku!!..wekkkk...gedik nk ejek2..sepaks!..haha..dah kalu gedik2 nk ejek, xyah bace..g men jauh2..wekk..

ok back to the point..hehe..rupenye muke aku masuk gak dlm bunting cucms..wahaha..mari lihat..

haa..tu aku!heheh

yes i am a little bit too excited.hehe.wekk biarla..

jgn nk ejek..

g men jauh2..

ayah dah potong rambut?????

ye pipi besarku diwarisi..tgk la pipi die tu..ayah!!pipi besar..nk tampa sket leh?gigit2!
cis..wat muke bajet macho lak tu..aaa...nk pukul!

OMG!! ayah dah potong rmbut ke?...yeke? ayah kan sayang sgt dgn rmbut-panjang-bruban-keriting-kusut-masai-xpenah sikat, ayah tu..smpi mase g haji pon,wat syarat je potong 3 helai..pastu kalu ibu terpotong pendek 1cm pon ayah dah ngis2 (btol k,ayah aku ngis)..haa,yg ni pe kes? sape potong ni?

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NOTTTTTT!!..aduiiii..nk kene ayah ni..curik sepit rmbutku semasa aku sedang nyenyak berdengkur di sit belakang..apekah??

wekkkk!!

ayah..ayah..ish ish ish..hahaha..nk pukul ayah plz!

kitornang pon nk lejir lidah gak..haha

langkawi 2009

eryna menarek rakus rambutku..ceit! bayi kejam

for the 100th time going to langkawi..bosan dow..but nevertheless, family bonding is wut matter the most rite?..so i just go with the flow..ikot je la ..haha..the objective this time around is still the same..ibu nk beli coklat n coningware.huaa..haha

sayang ibu!

alalala..comeynyeee cayang kacik tu..pakai topi2 lak iye..

yes mmg benar ape yg dilihat..gmbr2 ni sume hny ditangkap di dlam rumah,kereta atau feri..tiada gmbr di tempat2 yg popular seperti di helang, pantai & tempat2 cntik yg len..ini adalh kerana kami sudah muak melihat semua itu..yelah,.kan dah dekat sejuta kali dah g langkawi je memanjang..ajak g tempat len xnk.."ibu nk g langkawi gak!nk beli coklat n periuk..haa..kain batek gak" kate ibu dgn selamba tanpa mnghiraukan aku yg bermuncung panjang..

black mail -->surat hitam --> baju hitam

hahaha!! yela2..aku tau..aku slalu kutuk kampong ko..ye2 sorry..huaaa...tp xyah la dajal aku smpi cani..aku kenal senyuman keji ko tu..mata jahat ko tu..sengih2..ko gelak2 ye..ee...tampo baru tau..ni black mail namenye!! ni dah kira memperjudikan maruah aku ni..haha..cane aku nk pakai ni?! xpe2..ada hari aku balas..ko tunggu mase ko..TUNGGU..tompok2 badan ko nnt..

ya Allah..bantulah aku..cane aku nk pakai ni..?

aku pokai..

kalu aku leh tulis surat kat celcom..ni lah yg aku akan tulis...

syazwani,
Unit No.2 Street Mall 2,
63000 Cyberjaya,
Selangor Darul Ehsan,
Malaysia.

kepada encik Celcom yg dihormati,

saya adalah salah seorang drpd beribu2 pengedar UPAX..encik tau x UPAX tu ape?..mestila encik tau..dah name pon En.Celcom kan?..

seperti yg telah dinyatakan diatas, saya adlah salah seorang pengedar UPAX. sy amat berbangga kerana, walaupun sy ni adalah seorang pelajar perubatan yg sungguhlah tiada mase yg byk untuk berlibur,namun saya masih ade mase untuk membantu encik dlm memajukan syarikat telekomunikasi encik yg gah itu, iaitu celcom. tidakkah encik tertanya2 mengapakah sy snggup mempertaruhkan pelajaran sy demi membantu encik?ini berlaku kerana yuran tuisyen di instituisi pengajian tinggi swasta dimana tempat saya menuntut ilmu pembedahan adalah amat mahal sekali.mungkin jika encik kumpul2 duit gaji encik (slepas tolak makan minum anak bini,byr bill dll), saya percaya dlm mase 78 tahun encik akan dpt mgumpul wang sebyak duit yuran yg perlu sy bayar itu.byk kan encik?..jadi..memperlihatkan keadaan kewangan yg amat menyedihkan itu, saya dan 3 org rakan sy yg len (nyet2,mantop & psoriasi <-- bukn name sebenar) telah bersetuju untuk menjanlani hidup dgn berbekalkan air liur, otot2 kaki juga ketebalan muke (sy pakai mekup nk tebalkan lagi muke) untuk mencari sesuap nasi.. lagi sekali, sperti yg telah dinyatakan dalam perenggan 2 baris ke-2, kami tidak mempunyai waktu yg byk untuk berlibur, namun kami telah mencuri mase kami dan pergilah berlegar2 di stesen2 komuter seprti di MidV dan sepang, UPM, PWTC, ntah complex ape ntah dpn PWTC, jmbatan2 disekitar kl, tidak lupa CUCMS sendiri, dan bermacam2 tempat lain juga yg tidak dptlah sy nyatakan di dalam surat ini. terpaksa juga kerap berjumpa dgn ejen2 pembekal upax bg mendapatkan stock iaitu 'En.ahaaa & rakan2' (rkan2 kongsi sy yg lelaki2 ni 'takut' nk jmpe dorang), yg acap kali memberi arahan yg salah dan memberi jumlah wang yg juga salah..tp tidak mengapalah. walaupun kami penat,berpeluh, otot masseter kejang kerana terlalu byk membuat senyuman palsu, hamstring kadang2 cramp, nyet2 kadang2 emo, psoriasis kadang2 garu2 pale n gaduh ngan awek tersayang, mantop asek kecewa sbb sale xsmpi 400, dan saya yg sering kelaparan dan gaduh ngan mamat india baju ijau yg promote maxis, kami tetap gembira!! serius, kami mmg gembira, kerana pd penhujung harinya, kami akan mendpt pulangan bg segala usaha kami, iaitu duit! dan dpt gak mempertingkatkan comunication skill, bak kate omputeh.

kami selalu menggunakan skrip yg tetap "hai! nk upax free?free je!amek je!betul ni..amek je!nnt blk umah topup 10hinggit, dpt 10hinngit free agy, jadi total 20hinggit..amek la..rugi xamek!nak?? kalu nk, nah isi borang ni, n bak sini ic" kadang2 mantop tmbh ayat "kalu kitorang mintak sesen pon, sy tumbuk dak pmpuan yg kecik ni!"..ramai gak la yg amek..mmg kami tidak menipu..kerana sesunggunya mmg free pon.


namun kini hanya tinggal kenangan..tiada lagi pengedaran yg dpt dilakukan kerana en.celcom telah merubah polisi. encik telah menetapkan bahawa kami tidak lagi boleh mengedarkan upax dgn mengatakan "blk umah topup 10hinggit" kerana kini kami perlu kata "nk free?bleh..tp beli topup rm10 ni skali baru leh amek free"..apekah taktik penjualan itu akan berkesan? pada pendapat kami ia tidak akan berjaya. ia akan mgurangkan pengedaran kepada 80%! nk bagi free pon susah org nk amek, "there is no such thing as free!" kate pakcik2 cine yg lalu-lalang smbil manhalang anak2nye mngambil upax dari kami..kini,kami dgn rasa kecewa dan kemiskinan,hilang mood untuk mengedar.dan akhirnya..ini lah yg terjadi kepada kami..kami POKAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!huwaaaa....kasihanilah kami....

disini saya sertakan gmbr2 sewaktu kami berkerja..

sian dorang..penat isi borang

mekap tebal bg menambah ketebalan muka

xtau nape mantop wat idong cmtu..n xtau cane hantu helmet leh ade kat situ

sekian..

yg benar,
-sayapokai-

..rasa ini..

sebenarnya..
aku tak sukai rasa ini..
aku xmahukan rasa ini..
namun ia telah mguasai..

tahukah apa yg ku rasa ini?
mgkin kamu2 pernah lalui..
telah terpahat segala memori..
akhir punah merobek hati..

rasa ingin menyayangi..
ingin benar disayangi..
namun apa yg dilalui..
hanya membuat aku benci..

perlukah ada rasa ini?
haruskah aku jadi begini?
makin acap kukenangi..
makin kerap kutangisi..

rasa ini..
minggirlah jauh dari hati..
kerna terlalu sakit kurasai..
terlalu pahit tuk dinikmati..

ambillah pergi rasa ini..
sujud rayuku padaMu illahi..



.........tolonglah pergi rasa ini.........

ok la..fine...bijou baik

uhh..finally..called a few time by my program manager, they agreed on canceling the names of the tenants who at first wanted to join our carnival but then decided to join bijou bazaar..

thx for ur consideration bijou =) ..

ok, tarik balik sumpah aritu leh x?hehe

mocca - i think im in love

ohho! jmpe satu lagu yg sgt amat kelakar n comell...bukak blog sai n jmpe link tuk mocca..tgk kat utube,n terjumpe lagu comel ni..
sume lagu mocca mmg comel2 ke ar?mmg lagu die sume tuk goyang2 pale ek?
dgr n enjoy k..hehe..comel2.. =).."oh no!" hehe



If you got an eerie feeling after hanging up the phone
Sort of happy feeling but you're not sure what it's called

If you're haunted by his face whenever you're asleep at night
And think you hear his silly voice just calling out your name

Oh, no! I think I'm in love with you..
Oh, no! I'm hoping you'll want me too
So, please.. don't let me down!

Just can't help but talk about him in every conversation
Till your friends are sick and tired of that same old crap

If you start wearing make up even when you go to bed
Crying like a baby when you hear a mellow song

Oh, no! I think I'm in love with you..
Oh, no! I'm hoping you'll want me too
So, please.. don't let me down!

yackedill..'yuck-ker-del'

-tribute to the gedikicker ltd.- love u guys damn much..

maksud yuckedill?yackedill?yakedil?

yakkedil ni is the word dat the gedikickers, use to decsribe the kejijikan n kegelian toward anything that we dislike.

**this word was actually first used by my qiqilala aka akiller when we were in form 3..aku mahsyurkan ayat ko qila**

contoh penggunaan:
..pakcik yuckedill..
tersebutlah kesah..ade sorang pakcik library yg sgt menggelikan dan sgt kegatalan mase kat matrik dulu..Ya Allah..tergatal lebih ar librarian tu..kalu hensem kacak dan bergaya, mgkin perbuatan gatal keji itu bleh ar diterima akal..tp...haih..gigi pon cm xbtul susunannyyee.. die cam ingt sume pmpuan nk suke kat die..sengih2..ee..tampo baru tau..tp xpe..kadang2 manusia gatal ni buleh digunakan untuk kesenangan dan kemudahan kehidupan harian..
pernah la satu aritu, kitorang nk print assigment n notes..cam byk la gak..dah nk date line mase tu..kitornag pon g la library sbb nk print..setibenye di situ..
"mak ai,,pjgnye barisan,,xleh pjg agy ke?"
pastu ..pakcik yuckedill yg ade mata yg ligat berpusing tu pun hampirkan diri..dan..ehem2..

"ye nk ape? fotostat ek?"
"eh x2,kitorang nk print assigment ni haa..dah nk kene anta"
"oh print.."
the gedikicker perpandangan antara satu same len dgn mata yg.... 'hehehe'..
dan kami pn lancarkan peluru (kami tau die ni gatal huahua)

"ermmm..abaaannnggg..xleh ke printkan?"
"err.."
"pelizzz??? dah nk kene anta la bang"
"hurm..patunye xleh.."
"alaaa...=( "
"hurmm..patutnye xleh ni..tp xpe la..tuk kamu2 leh la..meh ikot saya msuk bilik pejabat saya"
"???????"

kitorang cm..nk mati ke org tua ni nk ajak2 masuk bilik lak!!!tp sbb nk anta gak asgg ni kami rentasi gigi xtersusun itu.. pabila smpi di bilik pejabatnye yg besar dan suram yg xperanh dimasuki oleh student len itu..baru la kitorang tau..besar gak pangkat die ni..gedabak bilik!..pastu die pon mulela..

"nk print bape ni?"
"4..leh ke?byk tp.."
"tuk kamu2 bleh.." sengih
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"saya ni... duk sorang2 je kat sini..blum kawin agy..girlfren pon xde (muke sedih knon)"

kitorang nk pengsan dah dgr kata2 geli itu..so?ko xkwin.sorang2.xde awek.so?ee...plz la..kitorang nk print bende tu je..ee..yackedill la ko ni pakcik yackedill!

macm2 la die ceta ngan segih2 geli die tu..smbil tu kami berdoa supaye mesin cetak die tu leh berkelajuan 1000page/sec..dah xtahan dah ni..
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n bile dah siap..kami cepat2 dan pantas amek kertas and..

"dah siap?eh thxxxx sgt bangggg!!(sengih!!)..bape hinggit ek??(muke kesian)"
"erm..xpe la..saya bagi FREE je"
tercengang.
"oh?btul ke?thxxxxx bannnggg..(sengih!)"
berpandagan sesame sendiri(lagi) smbil angkat kening dgn padangan yg masing2 mgerti 'yes berjaya!!huahua'

'mekaseh' pakcik yackedill



the gedikickers ltd.