sugar

.when u dont tell me about all those sweet little (or big) things you did for me.
.and when i come to know about it from someone else.
my heart just melts awayyyyyyyyyyyy~~~~
i think i might get diabetes
dear you, thank you.

pisang emas dibawa berlayar, msk sbijik di atas peti...

akhirnye..masalah rumah, nk pilih2 bilik dah settel..
sampai bengkak2 mate..hamek ko.
malu sgt2 ok...xpernah ngis depan org tau x..buang tebiat agaknye..buruk! buruk!
tp td mmg xleh tahan pny..gigil2 otot2 muka nk than..gagal.



1. thanks to my very understanding housemates faran n ecah..thanks a lot k..hutang budi ni..i'll pay it back one day.

2. thanks to U for giving me the comfort and support i needed. i really2 apreciate it. :) (p/s: tikam dia, jgn xtikam)


bak kate org..buat baik dibalas baik..




aku pulak,
Syukur Alhamdulillah..Allah bukakkan jalan tuk aku kali ni..
mungkin sbb aku tlg cicak yg terstuck 2 hari dlm sink tu kuar td kot..

thx cicak sbb doakan aku. len kali stuck la lagi, leh aku tlg.

kwn makan kwn

aku xsgka..
never in my life, i tot you would do this to me..

kamu..kamu terkantoi la..
kamu lupe..kamu penah TERRRbagi tau sy bende yg kamu xprasan, adalah sgt penting.
sy rase la kan, kamu smpi skang xprasan, yg kamu dah TERbg info tu.
dan sy ade bukti kukuh yg kamu perangkap sy..
sumpah xsgka.sumpah.

kamu tau sy ni dlm kesusahan yg amat la sgt..
kamu tau sy ni amat la sedang memerlukan barang yg kamu offer tu..
mmg sy la yg bodo, g percaya sgt kat kamu tu kan..
yela,kwn sndiri, sape xcaya kan?
xsgka kene tipu hidup2..

nk tau cane kamu terkantoi?
mlm smalam, dah nk tido ni..dah kul 3am..dah tutup lampu dah pon..dah pejam mata dlm 5min..
tgh pikir2 pasal kesempitan yg aku tgh lalui skang ni..dgn amat la sedeyh..
aku terpikir nape la mata ni xnk tido2 agy..aku dah guling2 pon xnk tido..
tetibe, Allah ilhamkan kat aku..xtau kenapa..xtau untuk ape..tp mcm ade sumting yg bagitau aku "eh syaz. pekata ko cek..btul ke?"
..........
jwapan yg terpampang kat depan mata aku wat jantung ni rase nk jatuh.
...........
aku cek lagi skali....
....btul...
cek lagi..
...still sama...
pagi ni aku cek lagi..sbb aku sgt xcaye laaaa die wat cani kat aku..
..tetap sama...........


kepada kamu..
how could you. i trusted you. now, i will never again.never.
i know im stupid.but never once i tot YOU, of all people would do that to me.
YOU.



and after soooo long i tried not too... i cried.






p/s: again..dont anybody ask me, who am i refering to. please DONT!
bcoz seriously, you wouldn't want to hear the words that might come out from my mouth.


p/s: sai..this is not about you. jgn awak terasa pulak tau. you, i love..

login facebook dpt rm100..halal ke haram?

it has been awhile since the first time i hear about this scheme.
and i was OFCOURSE very very very sceptical, as im a paranoid.
for me, this scheme is one of the 'get rich scheme'..
i have never believe in it.
sume tipu nih!

but yesterday, my fren, Nana, has ask me to join this scheme..and i was, like i always has been, very sceptical, said to her that "u masuk dulu, if u dpt duit tu btul2, bru i masuk".. and she did. yesterday, she bank-in her rm100 to her upline, and this morning she came to class and.. "syaz! i dah dpt rm700!!".. and i was like "yeke..(still sceptical)..dah msuk bank u ke? (secara sinisnye)"..she said "of belom, i xde la nk gtau u..DAH!"...ape lagi, i straight away "OK I NK MASUK. REGISTERKAN I SKANG!" hahaha..that was me being me. hehe

ok then, i pon start la..msging my frens to invite them to join the scheme..sebab cm gempak kan dpt rm700 dlm sehari.
some seems interested. some says no. but one make made me think.
yes..that one person made me think of the consequences.. and he actually made me feel like a bad person. yeah..
but somehow, thank to him, i waas having some thoughts "hurm..halal ke bende ni?kang aku makan hasil duit ni, pejadi? sanggup ke aku sbb duit skit kat dunia ni, kene soal kat akhirat nnt?" ...hurmm..
then i had some discussion with my classmate regarding this matter..some of them said that it is haram.
feeling very dissapointed, because i REALLY REALLY need some money now, i decided not to join the scheme, and said sorry to Nana that i could do it. i just can't.

but, i still want to get some money somehow. i remembered that my mom, is working in an islamic bank. thus i called her..
she said that "it is not Syariah Compliant. but it is not considered Haram also bacause it has a product to offer.its up to you to use the product or not, but the company has provided you with their products. and that is it. anyway syg, it is really up to you in the end. what is your niat? your niat is to help the one who is your upline, which is nana your friend, and at the same time, you help yourself, right?..i know you are concern about the halal and haram issues, but if you are not satisfied with my answer, you can do your own research. search the net darling, im sure there must be some issues regarding this already.."

so, i did my research..
some said haram, some said halal.
you can read these articles
the one saying its haram: click here
and the one saying that it is halal: click here
after debating with my own conscience i decided that the debate of the the article that says it is halal wins.
read it guys.. read it.. i did my research, and so must you.

in the end,
i registered under nana on the scheme!


to those interested, you can ask me.
its easy money. not free money. but without "usaha" you will not earn anything!!
so keep your mind open.
if you have decided to join, ask me for details!

this is my link:
http://www.infinitydownline.com/?id=akusyazz

si anonymous..

kadang2 aku xpaham ngan sikap sesetengah org.. aku xkacau sape2 pon..nape kacau hidup aku?
aku nk tulis blog, tempat aku nk luahkan ape yg AKU rase, pon org nk hina2..kenape?

meh tgk ape sorang manusia yg xbrani nk letak name die mase komen kat post aku yg brtajuk "air mata duyung", die gelar diri die 'anonymous'
yg peliknye die ni, bukan nk komen kat post tu..die nk komen pasl air mata duyung tu, tp terbijak sket, die letak komen die kat "trima kasih saiyang" ..
aku xpaham manusia cani la..die kenal ke aku ek? xpela..

tuk mudahkan korang, meh aku paste je komen die kat sini..

"pergh.. sedap kau cakap knowledge org lemah.. dah ko blaja pasal medic.. ko tau la pasal hormon2 ke ape kebenda tu.. cuba suruh ustaz plak tanye ko pasal agama.. kompom bangang ko nak menjawab.. suruh lawyer lak tanye pasal undang2.. terlopong mulut ko cam budak bengong nak menjawab.. tak yah la mengata orang ye.. ko tu pun ilmu tak de tinggi mane.. setakat amek medic kat cucms.. alahai.. dak credit spm pun leh amek.. bio dpat b pun leh amek lagi asal kan ada duet.. so jgn pandang orang sebelah mate ye"

aku nk tny sket.. ade ke aku hina org kat dlm post tu?
sesungguhnya org2 yg xkenal aku, sgt xtau cara n nada aku berckp dan ayat2 yg aku sering gunakan..kesian die..
tp ni aku nk ckp sket kat ko..meh dgr meh..

tp sbelom tu, tuk mudahkan ko, n nk selamatkan ko dari dosa fitnah lagi, ko kene bygkan dulu muke aku bercakap cane ye..bukan muke marah yeee..tp muke mcm makcik jual cendol yg tgh nasihatkan anak die dgn lemah lembutnya..ade faham?..dah ready?..dah bleh byg? ok..ingt..aku mkcik yg lemah lembut tu tau..smbil kelip2 mata perlahan2 lagi tu..haaa..

ok mula...

..sesungguhnya aku kesian la ngan ko ni wahai si anonymous yg xbrani nk letak name oi..len kali kalu nk hina carut aku, sila letak nama. atleast aku leh doakan kehadrat illahi kesihatan ko..tp jap, ade aku sruh ko bace blog aku ke? kesian..kesian..

ko kalu xpaham ape aku tgh ckp, jgn nk pandai2 bygkan nada dan intonasi aku mase tulis bende2 tu ye..aku tulis tu dgn nada yg aku slalu gune ngan KAWAN2 aku (which im sure u r not one of them!)..xde lgsg nada nk merendah2kan org..ko xkenal aku lgsg..yg ko trus nk hambur aku cmtu apehal? yg ko terasa sgt kenapa agaknye ye?haih..kesian aku tgk manusia2 cmni la..kalu xkenal aku, jgn byk bunyik kat sini bleh tak...?hmm??

mmg aku bodo.aku ngaku..aku xpernah ckp aku pandai pon..mcm ko ckp..SPM bio dpt B.matrik kantoi.buat blk foundation (kat CUCMS 'je' pulak tu kan?kan?).mmg..bodo kan??tp aku terus usaha ye..aku xbrenti kat situ dan tunggu mati.aku tau ape cita2 aku..cita2 aku adalh tuk menjadi seorang doktor dan dgn izin Allah, semoga aky dpt bantu mereka2 yg sakit..aku dgn setekun2nya usaha semula. haa..ni bukan nk bermegah..baik aku ckp awal2, sbb kdang2 mnusia cm ko ni suke skah anggap..tapi kan..foundation aku 3.8 ko xnk bising ke syg??PRO exam 1 aku distinction ko xnk carutkan pulak ye?! semua berkat doa mak bapak aku, guru2 aku, ye....guru aku, merangkap prof2 dari 'CUCMS' tu...yg ko ckp kami bodo sgt tu..yg KAU rendahkan tu..sume tu ko xnk carutkan kat komen ko tu ke sayanggggg?

yela..budak2 yg masuk CUCMS sume bangang2 kan?ko tu pasti bijak pndai dari University A-list dan ahli syurga tingkat ke-7 kan?bgus..tahniah aku ucapkan pada ko.

ko nk ckp "asalkan ada duet" ye?..asalkan ade duet..anak org kaya, bodo cm babi kacuk lembu pon leh masuk 'CUCMS" ni kan..tapi ko lupe sesuatu la, or maybe ko xtau, BAPAK.AKU.DRIVER.TEKSI la, whai sial!...aku sgt bangga jadi anak die! dia,seorang ayah yg xkenal erti penat dan sgt kaya dgn kasih syg.. and ko nk ckp pasal duet kat sini?? kalu xreput kaki mak aku panjat tangga bgunan MARA tu, xkering air mata dia, dek nk merayu tuk aku si miskin jijik lagi bodoh ni nk dptkan loan,aku xmsuk tempat ni la whai keparat!haih..sayangnye aku kat ko ni..rase cm nk tikam2.. (ingt,nada aku mcm mkcik yg tgh nasihatkan anak dgn lemah lembut ye)

kau tau x ape yg aku paling benci pasal ko?..kalu stakat fitnah aku sorang je, aku xkesah sgt la lagi.. tapi ko hina SEMUA kwn2 aku yg blajar kat sini. kau perkecilkan guru2 aku. usaha2 dorang. kau perkecilkan university yg dorang usahakan dgn titik peluh dorang, dgn niat baik nk didik anak bangsa..kau berdosa pada mereka. kau carik la dorang semua (guru2 and semua student2 cucms ni) kat akhirat nnt ye..harap2 dpt la ko jmpe dorang nnt..kalu stakat dosa ko fitnah aku bukan2 tu, jgn risau, aku dah maafkan.

haih..anonynous..anonymous..

nk sruh org jgn sedap mulut konon.g cermin diri tu dulu ye. sila jgn singgah tempat ni lagi. g men jauh2. shooohhh!!

oh ye..lupe nk beri peringtan.. kalu satu hari nnt, kau sakit..ko nk g klinik atau hospital mane2, nk jumpe doktor, baik ko tny die lulusan university mane ye..aku takut kalu dorang tau tu ko, nnt dorang kasi racun.

maDe up.

hehuuu

as promised last few days..
i said im gonna update on the post "i want to be an artist........"
so.. today is the day.
today is Ain's pre-graduation dinner..and i am her 'make-up artist' for the day..so..let us see, what have i done to her face..


jeng jeng jeng! takut x? takut x? haha

before anything.nothing. tp tetap cantik kan?

after foundation and powder

bluish greenish turquioshish eyeshadow.
i use 4 combination of colors to get this effect

notice the shadow along the nasal bridge?
just to define and to add kemancungan of the nose bak kate org la.

eye was lined and mascara-ed ..haha

i draw her eyebrow darker and splash some pink blusher on her cheeks

after the lip has been lined and dashed with colour

side view.
i have put some hair product to add volume and curls

tadaaa...


dont worry, that is definitely NOT her dinner dress. :p

let me remind u of the 'before' photo :) haha





AND oh!



i also did on Ain's friend eye..some gold, yellow, gray and dark navy blue

sorry la if terburuk with the unpolished skill of makeup'ing.
i did not go to any beauty class.so.... go figure la kan..haha
what i have today is solely thru trial and error , with some help from utube!


oh sungguh laaa xjadi mcm yg video from utube that i took tu kan??hahaha!! sorry!


till then..tata~